where hav i been?? ...i knw iknw its been long since i upgraded my blog ..no excuses...cozi hav run out of thm..actully the thing is tht i was dead lazy to post anything though i hav written two posts but didn't type them . anyways...
i opened my eyes n found i was in a long corridor n whn i came outside d corridor..wht i saw..was a military base camp..a helicopter takin cadets to sumwhre.there were commanders n al, military officers..one of my school frnd told me to go into tht big chopper. i sat in it.i was afraid ,i never were inside the helicoptor ..hightphobia was also d reason...v reached to d hostel.there were two wings ,one for the gals n another one 4 d guys. i was shocked to c..wht m doin here?? few days back i was planning for an event "a rockband competition"...suddenly wht hapnned...my whole life was changed...my kind of girl...simple,artistic,cute,writer...was in military school....learning how to fire...#$%wht the hell...
we get up early in d morng...these army ppl. don' undersand tht i used to get up @ 9 am...tough life here...!
@5 am...we were doing parade,running,,jumping..u knw this experience was not tht bad actully i luv to wear those army uniforms..i luk more cute in thm..:) and feeling of being patriotic is quite awsum...we were goin to mess for our breakfast...and suddenly....I WOKE UP..n i found tht it was a dream...!! oh god..it was 8:30 a,..n i was getting late to get ready 4 my office,but wht a dream i had...:) superb...had fun ..it is like...get the feeling of"deja vu"(feeling somethin tht never hav happened or u never did..means experiencing without doings hav u ever felt.,..."deja vu"...i felt...!!
Just imagine…one day u get a news on tv channel..(anyone of them…they do the same thing …keep repeating “breaking news”…!)
Lets cum back to the point…if u get to know tht after 15 days or lets say 20 days the earth will be finished ….over …lost in the space…whtteverr….in short u have only 15 or 20 days to live…I know it sounds stupid but seriously if this happens..wht u will wanna do…don’t think abt the money or other resources, u will need to fulfill ur desire…just concentrate on ur …wishes…dreams…! Let ur imagination fly.
I mean…if I get a chance …hmmm I wud like to spend this tym wid my frnds…hangouts wid them, treats….wanna go to to scary house again..hehe…a small trip to London, Italy etc etc. n yes …wanna slap few ones…jor se…!! ohhh shit….ranbir se bhi toh milna hai…so will have to save one day for him…roller coaster ride , stage performance in auditorium full of ppl…n baaki bache hue dino me koi family trip..:)I think …this programme is enuf for 15 or 20 days..if I wud get more days…my list wud be longer . u know thts what I wanna say..there is nothing like “last wish” , when we get something, we want more of tht..actully aisa kuch hai he nahi jiske baad hame lage..ki ab hame kuch nahi chahiye…!
Wishes r like stars in the sky..khatam he nahi hoti…but still we should wish for something or other..it gives us reason to live…so whats ur last wish????....:)
wanna share a superb poem by mahadevi verma...so simlpe...sooo expressive...they were realy gr8 ppl. who wrote such things...!
आंधी आई जोर शोर से
डाली टूटी है झकोर से
उड़ा घोसला बेचारी का
किस से अपनी बात कहेगी ...
अब ये चिड़िया कहाँ रहेगी..?
घर में पेड़ कहाँ से लाये
कैसे ये घोसला बनाये
कैसे फूटे अंडे जोड़े ...
किस से ये सब बात कहेगी..
अब ये चिड़िया कहाँ रहेगी...?
It’s been yrs.
It’s been month….days…
And moments…..
Now my eyes have to stop searching….
Coz…sometimes u have to stop waiting….!!
I found myself standing….
When everyone else was walking…..
What the hell….i was doing…??
I think…. sometimes u have to stop waiting….!!
Nothing comes….just like that…
U close ur eyes….
Praying enuf from heart…
When u stop….someone may start feeling….
sometimes u just..have to stop waiting….!!
Don’t ask…n u will get…
Sooner ..or may be late…!
Its not….when it comes…
It comes….for sure…!
Somewhere heart is assuring ….
But u have to stop waiting….!!
Destiny….let the people meet…
Straight on the road..
Or down the street…
It knows ur way…
Open the door it is coming…
Hmm.. u have to stop waiting….!!
Right moment…perfect person…
Come on..u got to stop dreaming…!!:)
Ohh ..i think now..i have to stop writing…
“Expectations”…wht comes in ur mind first, whn u listen this word……m sure….sumthin tht is not gud, negative, burden ….right na..?
But I gave this word a moment n then got to know the real meaning of…”expectation” and its relation ship wid “our relations”..
Lets c it in this way…..the ppl. …I hav no expectation wid…r the ppl…who r not as imp. To me as the ppl. I hav expectation frm….
It seems to me tht…”the more expectation…the more stronger relationships..”
(its hard to behave the way they show in all spiritual channels…”no expectation …no demands…”:0)
But the question is…”expectation exist bcoz of relations or relations exist bcoz of expectation ….tough one na…?
Do u know the answer….??for ex. Whn v meet sumone …we meet wid no expectation….than if v find , v can hav connection wid tht person..if tht person can give love, friendship in return….wid this expectation we start walking on path of relationship…!
Soo…I think …expectation n relation go hand in hand…!
If you don’t expect from a relation…you can’t go ahead wid it…”!!!
Now the bigger question,”why v say…expectation kills..”??
Either expectation kills the relation or relation dies without expectation..interesting na…kitne log aap ko yaad hai..jinse aapko bilkul expectation nahi…?(plzz don’t give name of sabji vaala, doodhvaala…hehe…rather v expect from them too…to give us better quality..) sabse he hame badle me kuch na kuch toh chahiye he na..!!
Big issues of life…hmm??..hav u ever felt tht life’s questions r more difficult than the questions of our study course…..well I toh feel so…u know v get the answer of our course in our books…but life’s answers…v hav to find ourselves…wid our experience…
Okk…so where v were..hmm..expectation n relation…I think both r complementary to each other…let me give u an easy example of that…
Like if v have a plant..we water it..everyday, day by day…it grows…flowers comes, fruits cums…we enjoy watering tht plant…but suddenly to get more…we start water it thrice a day, then four time n so on means…more than it requires …than wht happens….we all know…plant dies one day…!!
moral of the story: “a relation can give..as much as it contains..not more than tht..” whn u expect it to give..it will give…but whn u expect it to give more…it won’t….!
EXPECTATION DOESN’T KILL….MORE EXPACTATION KILLS…!!
Keep watering ur relations wid healty expectation ….than only ur plant will grow n will bcum a strong tree…!
Not to keep expectations is not in our hand..we all do..! but remember one thing ..”kisi se jitna bhi mile thik hai…”
Just relish wht u hav got from others…!!
Gar dil se tujhe apnate…
Teri lehar me sama jate…
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!
Na kabhi gam satate…
Na fir hum ghabrate…
Agar kuch sapne na sajate….
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!
Kash jido ko apni hadd na banate..
Us raha pe bas chalte jate…
Aur Khawaabo ki duniya na basate….
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!
Koshish jo karte na ulajhne ki..
Sulajh he jate…vo sawaal hum nahi uthate..
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!
