“corner of peace “..

I go to restaurants wid my frnds,enjoy romantic movies @ theater , get crazy abt filmstars, like good looking cricketers ,love to wear trendy cloths,had fun in college tym…dream abt prince charming..i mean I do all d things wht an ordinary girl love to do..but there is something unstable , something different..or I shd use d proper word..somethin weird inside me..(I doubt may b its spirituality ).:(inside me.
Whnever i sit alone I think abt the meaning or purpose of my life..”why m here?” there must b a reason ..n I want to knw some kind of divine or sacred answer of this question.
I don’t want to choose a particular path in my life or like m afraid of committing myself for a certain thing..for ex. If u wud ask me to b someone’s wife and manage his house whole life ,I wont b able to do tht..may b I wil do it one day..bt dis wud not be satisfactory. It is kinda instability I feel in me….as in I like to switch my life to different things , whenever I want ..i wish to have total control on it.
M puzzled abt the question of life ..our existence on d earth..? is it to find out a soulmate?...to get a perfact job..?....to fulfill our desires..or just to accept d things that happen to us.

Seeking answer for these questions is like putting urself in trouble …bt widout knowing d answer ..nothing in life make sense to me.
I just want a “corner of peace “..in this world ..where whenever I get tired , confused by all thses question ,..i cud sit alone for hours n seek d answers from myself….