hmmmmm...:)

i always wanted to write abt this, but used to think ..its personal...but my blog is also my personal thing...so i can share here....abt my kinda person......for whom i hav been waiting..
if i hav to write down d meaning of my life...there wil b 3 purpose:
1. to bcum independent person, having my own identity...
2. open my own NGO n working for ppl. who need help.
3...n the last one but most imp. to get the love of d person ..m waiting for...d person of my dream.
i knw m goin to get him so soon bcoz this is sumthin i realy want from my heart...
its realy tough 4 me to describe, d qualities ,...he shd hav...bt for eg:

*he shd b handsum,tall,dark or fair bt some charm shd b there...
*hmmmm...he shd b sensitive.responsilble, understanding, carin n romantic...
*he shd respect women n family values..
*he shd hav some hobby or passion in his life...like singing, sports, playing guitar...agar singer ho toh better...
*he shd hav gud sense of humor, shd know wht love is all abt.
*n ha if he resembles ranbir kapur tht wud b gr8...
*his voice shd b manly...
*dressing sense shd b gud...soft hearted person...
*he shd b lyk "ranbir raj" of movie sawariaa...or swades ka "mohan" bhi i lyk...
*one more thing he shd b crazy abt me..
areeeee baba ek baat toh bhool he gyi...he will hav to sing" tera hone laga hoo"...for me...
even thoughts abt him makes me happy....

it just happens.............

hey m back after a long break.. i wrote this one in my exam time...i know m being repetetive but kya kare.. love topic he aisa hai...its magical...love just happens.

you don't force urself to fall in it...
you can't deleberately feel it...
its magical........
love just happens....!!

your last dream told you..
whats your last desire....
its hard to describe...
how to admire.....
its magical........
love just happens....!!


its tough to give up...
even tougher to take up..
its not whom u want to sleep with...
its with whom u want to wake up....
its magical........
love just happens....!!

when u listen the music wind is playing..
having faith in someone..
as if u have got everything u needed...
look its magical...
love just happens...!!

it keeps u goin ....
make u happy ever...
feels like...what u felt never...
hmmm...its magical..
love just happens..!!

when u smile ...its rain..
a beautiful purpose to attain...
fall in once...for rising again...
are u feeling the magic...
coz...its magical...
love just happens....!!...kyu ho gya na...:)

" a good way"..

The movie “twilight” inspired me to write this. I imagined a situation n thn i created this poem. I supposed tht there is a girl who love a guy so much. They are in love unconditionally. Girl gets to know tht she is goin to die. Tht guy also know this fact tht she will leave him for ever... n than what she feels i described in my poem....





I never thought how wud i die...
may i die to place of someone i love..
than death would be pleasure...
Devine wud be that day..
hey..it seems gud way...

I ‘ll be so lucky
My end wud take me closer to you..
I won’t be loosing you...
Coz than i ‘ll be one in you...
Darkest may be that night...
Brightest wud be that day..
Yes...it seems a gud way.....

This wud not apart us..
Coz..i can’t afford to be without you ever..
Rather its a chance to get you forever...
Forgettable wud be that night
Memorable wud be that day...
Realy ...it seems a gud way....

I don’t regrate that m going..
I know i loved you at my best...
But wanted few more moments with you...
Guess ..its a dream...but i want it to be true...
M helpless to say...that ...i love you....


I never thought how wud i die...
may i die to place of someone i love..
than death would be pleasure...
Devine wud be that day..
hey..it seems a gr8 way...

"Death of a dream"

hwn someone dies ...everybody gets to know..
but when a dream dies..only that person can understand wid in whom it is being died..
its a amazing subject to write about...though its negetive but beautiful...i hav done gud job..:)

I may seem happy
I may be enjoying
but something has died inside me...
I think...its a death of a dream..!


It used to make me smile
used to give me rest for while
It feels like empty inside...
coz its a death of a dream..!

I am walking in dark
searching for light
just let it pass...
there was..death of a dream..!

hard to accept
harder to forget..
it was part of my life for long..
how to face..death of a dream..!

I couldn't get it back
nothing comes if it is gone
thats why i say..its a death of a dream..!

the most beautiful place..
an innocent heart
now has become a grave..
yes..its a death of a dream..!


will i get it again??
will it be possible??
my heart beats so loud.
I request it to be silent
coz..its a death of a dream..!

Mera gam...

its always ME, MYSELF,MY PROBLEMS, MY DESTINY, MY BADLUCK...we never think out of this "my world"phenomenon...yeah v nvr do...!!
v believe that "humse jyada is duniya me koi dukhi nahi"...,"saare k saare dukh bhagvan ne hamare khate me dal diye".., "y god is doin dis with me"..
apni probs itni badi lagti hai ki..apna saara gussa ..all d anger v put on our destiny..
but just for a minute ...kya hamne kabhi socha hai ki iss itni badi duniya me kuch aise log bhi hai jo raat ko bhookhe sone pe majboor hai, kuch aise bhi hai jo kabhi school nahi ja pate, jinke paas koi ghar nahi hai...noo v never thought..
hamare liye toh ham hi sabse bade dukhi hai..
hame toh khush hona chaahiye ki hamare paas kitna kuch hai,
hum se bhi kahi jyada dukhi log are present in this world.soo b hpy for wht u hav...
hum khudse bade logo ko dekh kar dukhi hote hai...but khud se neecho ko dekhne pe hi pata chalta hai..ki wht v have.
thank.. god for the gifts he has given us....!!
n always remember that...
"duniya me kitna gam hai...mera gam kitna kam hai"...!!


kisi ko jindgi ki hasrat hai..
kisi ko khushiyo ki chahat hai..
koi kismat ka maara hai
toh kahi bichadne ka matam hai.
mera gam kitna kam hai...!


apni jholi sada khali lagi
khuda ka khudse apnapan kam laga..
par yaha aasuo se bheega sabhi ka daaman hai.
mera gam kitna kam hai..!


apne sare sapne adhure lage..
ummed lagi chhoti..
ghar yaha aise bhi hai ..
jaha nahi hai roti.
haalato ka maara unka mann hai..
mera gam kitna kam hai..!


sab kuch hote hue bhi hame kam lagta hai..
doosro ka jeevan aasaan lagta hai..
har koi lad raha hai yaha..
aankh sabhi ki nam hai..
mera gam kitna kam hai..!

THANKS MY FRIEND...

I ALWAYS BELIEVE THAT WE SHOULD NOT WASTE A MOMENT TO SAY UR CLOSE ONES "THANXX".
SHOW UR AFFECTION AS MUCH U CAN...:)M DOIN THE SAME.


Thanks......for being there for me
For all the times “you” listened when I
Needed someone to simply hear me out...

For the times you stood up for me and
Shared my thoughts
Without passing judgements
For all the ways “you”
Thought me that I
Was an important and valuable person....

I am very grateful to “you”
For you have helped me , in
More ways than
You‘ ll never know...

I wish I had a magic wand
That i could just wave
In “your” direction
And make everything
Better..

I wish I could sprinkle
Some star dust
That would erase every problem
That comes “your” way

If only I could get my hands an a magic
Lamp
And rub it until a genie appeared
I would ask to put an end to all your worries.
And bring great
Happiness for “you”

I really don’t know any magic but
If deep feelings and warm thoughts can help,
There’s definitely some wonder
Working stuff headed your way...my friend.

"PRIYANKA".....:)

PRIYANKA..... accordin to google meaning..it means beautiful symbol or act...! now what “priyanka” actually means ???..who else can tell this better than ME....:)
Main hamesha se aisi nahi thi jaisi aaj hu...pehle thodi alag thi ...thodi aur paagal...:)..!! kuch similarities hai aaj bhi...

Jab chhoti thi toh i was crazy abt films, celebrities, music n dance....dewaani thi bilkul...i used to see impossible dreams..bahut bade sapne..n vo bhi without planning. Train me travel karna muje bahut pasand tha. I just love rain tab bhi n ab bhi...! pehle bhi me apni life aise hi jeeti thi...with full of dreams n philosophy...

I used to collect filmstars photos, sochti thi main konsi heroine ki tarah dikhti hu..hahaha..apni saari tension bhagvan ko de rakhi thi... manti thi aage ki lyf bahut achhi n spcl. Hone vali hai..muje kuch nahi karna padega ...bhgvan hai na..vo sab kuch kar denge..jyada frnds nahi the mere . apni duniya me he rehti thi...wanna share a funny incident...baat unn dino ki hai..whn i was totally mad abt movies. I was in class 5th n one day i got to know tht filmstars actually don’t sing, they just do lip-sync.i was soo attached to them that i realy shocked ...kuch dino ke liye..mera interest he khatam ho gya tha films se...:) u knw yahi baat apni bilkul pasand nahi..me kuch jyaada he dil laga leti hu cheejo se..thats why i can’t leave them easily.
Hmmmm...aaj bhi thodi pehle jaisi he hu..but ab janti hu ki bhagvan sab kuch nahi karte, hame bhi kafi kuch karna padta hai aur ha..ab muje ye tension bilkul nahi ki me kis heroine ki tarah lagti hu..:) jaisi hu ...achhi hu....! aaj bhi sapno ke pankh lagakar door kahi chali jati hu..but shayad unpe itna believe nahi karti..yahi toh difference hai. ..when v are child.everythin is possible n when v grow up..everythin seems difficult. ..vaise kabhi kabhi vo purani vali priyanka new priyanka ko overtake kar leti hai..for eg. Aaj bhi kisi gud lukin hero ki crazy fan ban jati hu...vo kehte hai na..” kuch cheeje kabhi nahi badalti”...!:)

Very less ppl. Understand me...m a bit rebel inside.. i like to do things in my way...life me kuch principle hai ..jo bahut imp. Hai mere liye. I do everythin from my heart..n expect others to do the same..tht is why sumtyms i get amazed ..when sumone’s behave emotionlessly.
The thing i like abt myself is ..me apne liye logo se bahut kam expect karti hu..isliye koi mere liye thoda bhi karta hai..toh it means lot to me...!!
I always wanted tht my life shd be like movies..beautiful charecters ,happy endings, awesum scenes...yeah..it is like movie...but without hero..hahaha...it compels me to think..” yaar vaisa toh nahi ho raha jaisa socha tha”..:)anyways..” picture abhi baaki hai mere dost”..

So yahi PRIYANKA hai..” simple, filmi, full of dreams n ha pyari...( maloom hai thodi taarif kar rahi hu apni but itna toh banta hai na..ye article jo mene likha hai...):::::