चिड़िया ....

wanna share a superb poem by mahadevi verma...so simlpe...sooo expressive...they were realy gr8 ppl. who wrote such things...!




आंधी आई जोर शोर से
डाली टूटी है झकोर से
उड़ा घोसला बेचारी का
किस से अपनी बात कहेगी ...
अब ये चिड़िया कहाँ रहेगी..?




घर में पेड़ कहाँ से लाये
कैसे ये घोसला बनाये
कैसे फूटे अंडे जोड़े ...
किस से ये सब बात कहेगी..
अब ये चिड़िया कहाँ रहेगी...?

"life outside window"

a long way...an empty road...half dried fields...and soo much to see..inside the window i have limited option coz i have to see only some ppl. sitting in the bus..talking, sleeping..n outside the window i can see full life...!


chotte chotte ghar..painted white..paas me hukka peete hue an old man whose wrinkles tells abt his experience throughout his life.



n there are some women goin to their home probably..its so hot outside..they have worn bright colors ..like flowers..widout concerning penetrating sunlight...seeing them only makin me feel hot...



when we moved further n sunlight took bit rest..we could see the trees...dry, yet strong...standing alone in the field..vaha ek ped pe chhota sa monkey bhi hai..:)

lookin those trees for a moment it felt as if somebody is raising their hand in prayer..i thought ..if they pray..wht would they ask??
then i saw its branches...n then its emptiness..i guess tress were praying for greenary...all rajasthani trees do..:)some of them had got for which they prayed..their hands were full of green bunch of leaves..there r more leaves to come...pedo ki daliya abhi aur jhuk jayengi...! hum insaan agar chahte to ab tak inse kitna kuch sikh jate...duae kabul hone pe jhuk jaana...!


trees never move...unke liye jaha jade hai..vahi jeevan hai..saari khushiya , saare dukh vahi usi jagah par..its not a easy life...waiting for monsoon, sometimes bearing harshness of sun..or sometimes playing with cold breezes...!


for a long time..we have lived with beautiful nature...we have done many things for making our life enchanting..but still jab bhi bahar thandi thandi hawaaye chalti hai toh hum inn pedo ki taraf jhankne lagte hai...ghar me saare jamaane ka sajo saaman ho..par baarish jaisa koi nazara hum nahi bana paye,...mausmo ko naye rango me sanjone ki humne chahe jitni koshish ki ho..lekin na toh pehli baarish se aane vali mitti ki sondhi mahak bana paye...na pattio se chankar aati pani ki boondo jaisa natural fountain..;)

if we could learn...we have universities at each steps..!!



(this is my experience, which i wrote..while travelling udaipur to jodhpur.)

“you have to stop waiting”

It’s been yrs.
It’s been month….days…
And moments…..
Now my eyes have to stop searching….
Coz…sometimes u have to stop waiting….!!

I found myself standing….
When everyone else was walking…..
What the hell….i was doing…??
I think…. sometimes u have to stop waiting….!!

Nothing comes….just like that…
U close ur eyes….
Praying enuf from heart…
When u stop….someone may start feeling….
sometimes u just..have to stop waiting….!!




Don’t ask…n u will get…
Sooner ..or may be late…!
Its not….when it comes…
It comes….for sure…!
Somewhere heart is assuring ….
But u have to stop waiting….!!

Destiny….let the people meet…
Straight on the road..
Or down the street…
It knows ur way…
Open the door it is coming…
Hmm.. u have to stop waiting….!!

Right moment…perfect person…
Come on..u got to stop dreaming…!!:)

Ohh ..i think now..i have to stop writing…

"EXPECTATION ...."

“Expectations”…wht comes in ur mind first, whn u listen this word……m sure….sumthin tht is not gud, negative, burden ….right na..?

But I gave this word a moment n then got to know the real meaning of…”expectation” and its relation ship wid “our relations”..

Lets c it in this way…..the ppl. …I hav no expectation wid…r the ppl…who r not as imp. To me as the ppl. I hav expectation frm….

It seems to me tht…”the more expectation…the more stronger relationships..”
(its hard to behave the way they show in all spiritual channels…”no expectation …no demands…”:0)

But the question is…”expectation exist bcoz of relations or relations exist bcoz of expectation ….tough one na…?
Do u know the answer….??for ex. Whn v meet sumone …we meet wid no expectation….than if v find , v can hav connection wid tht person..if tht person can give love, friendship in return….wid this expectation we start walking on path of relationship…!


Soo…I think …expectation n relation go hand in hand…!
If you don’t expect from a relation…you can’t go ahead wid it…”!!!
Now the bigger question,”why v say…expectation kills..”??
Either expectation kills the relation or relation dies without expectation..interesting na…kitne log aap ko yaad hai..jinse aapko bilkul expectation nahi…?(plzz don’t give name of sabji vaala, doodhvaala…hehe…rather v expect from them too…to give us better quality..) sabse he hame badle me kuch na kuch toh chahiye he na..!!
Big issues of life…hmm??..hav u ever felt tht life’s questions r more difficult than the questions of our study course…..well I toh feel so…u know v get the answer of our course in our books…but life’s answers…v hav to find ourselves…wid our experience…


Okk…so where v were..hmm..expectation n relation…I think both r complementary to each other…let me give u an easy example of that…
Like if v have a plant..we water it..everyday, day by day…it grows…flowers comes, fruits cums…we enjoy watering tht plant…but suddenly to get more…we start water it thrice a day, then four time n so on means…more than it requires …than wht happens….we all know…plant dies one day…!!
moral of the story: “a relation can give..as much as it contains..not more than tht..” whn u expect it to give..it will give…but whn u expect it to give more…it won’t….!


EXPECTATION DOESN’T KILL….MORE EXPACTATION KILLS…!!
Keep watering ur relations wid healty expectation  ….than only ur plant will grow n will bcum a strong tree…!
Not to keep expectations is not in our hand..we all do..! but remember one thing ..”kisi se jitna bhi mile thik hai…”
Just relish wht u hav got from others…!!

ऐ जिन्दगी....!

Gar dil se tujhe apnate…
Teri lehar me sama jate…
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!

Na kabhi gam satate…
Na fir hum ghabrate…
Agar kuch sapne na sajate….
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!

Kash jido ko apni hadd na banate..
Us raha pe bas chalte jate…
Aur Khawaabo ki duniya na basate….
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!

Koshish jo karte na ulajhne ki..
Sulajh he jate…vo sawaal hum nahi uthate..
Toh shayad ae jindgi tuje samajh pate….!

खुद से जुदा .....!!

Nwdays m feelin …like m sitting on a river shore ….waitin 4 sumone to sit wid me for a while…but not finding anyone….so m alone there….talkin to maself..(the thing I was missing a lot…) I hav plenty of tym to spend wid myself only but m not able to find…”ME”…..and actually I don’t want it even…I just wanna be so busy …tht I cud lost myself……I don’t know where…m not in the mood to be “me”…! wht I just need …is sumone else to find me…yupz …thts wht I want… its like m putting walls around my heart..n wanting sumone to break them…..m so stubborn na….?? yes I am…hw anybdy will break those walls..? everybody is so busy in their own life …n I think they should be …if nothing intresting is happening in my life…this is not their fault...so m expecting nothing… Is this blue feeling…? NO… its not…its pink feeling…hehehe…coz m a girl… “m silent ….want sumone to make me speak… M alone….want sumone to be wid me… M flying…..want sumone to hold my hand tight… M searching….want sumone on whom ..i have right….” N guys …the poem has no romantic sense…coz I hav lost tht sense I guess…so don’t take it tht way….it just …m missing “myself”…n nt able to find myself alone…. M sharing my feelings…doesn’t mean m upset…m fine…

कभी कभी मेरे दिल में ख्याल आता है.....!

I knw this line is testimony of Mr. Amitabh Bachchan…”kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai…”
Bt kabhi kabhi mere dil me bhi khayal aata hai…

Ki khoobsurat , rangeen , jadu si lagne vali ye jindgi…itni aasan bhi nahi…

Kabhi kabhi kuch bhi achha nahi lagta…aur kabhi sab kuch bahut pyaara lagta hai…

Kabhi kabhi…jeene ka koi maksad nahi milta…aur kabhi jindgi sabhi armaano ko poora karne ka jariya lagti hai…


Kabhi kabhi sabhi sawalo ke javaab jante hue bhi..khud se vahi sawaal karne ka dil karta hai…milte hue bhi khud se bichhadne ka dil karta hai…

Kabhi kabhi sab apne lagte hai..kabhi sab kuch begaana sa lagta hai..bheed me hote hue bhi mann darta hai..


Kabhi kabhi akelapan majboot banata hai…aur kabhi khokhla sa karta hai…

I mean these things r revolving around my mind…

I don hav solution for this prob..but fir bhi aise he “kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai…”!!