"true factor"

today i discovered a new thing in me which was in me bt i was nt aware of it...tht thing is my need of"true factor"
whtever i wnt in my life shd b "true"...true frnds,true luv, true feelings, true relations...true conscious. evrythin shd b true...true...true..!! sunne me achha lag sakta hai ye word "true" bt milna bahut mushkil hai , i tell u..
in cheezo k sath prob ye hai ki milni toh hai nahi bas sapne he dekhte reh jao aur agar aap lucky rahe n upar describe ki hui cheejo me se aap ko kuch mil bhi jae toh aap k bhav badh jate hai...u start desiring 4 more...take ex. of me:
true frnd- i hav it
true life-dnt knw
true conscious-may b
true relations-dnt knw
true heart-i hav it
last bt nt d least true love-iske baare me ..m sure"kabhi nhi hoga"..


meri maniye toh u also remove dis "true" word frm ur dictionary ...jo mile usse kaam chala lo..
ye jo "true "vali philosophy hai na..bechare se dil k charo taraf ek strong vali deewar bana deti hai...jispe har normal, "not-so-true bt gud" bande ke liye "NO ENTRY" likha hota hai...vaise ye normal "not-so-true-bt gud" cheeje bhi buri nhi hoti...:) bt if u have tht wall around ur heart like me..toh aapko un cheejo ki achhaiya bhi dikhai nhi deti...n if fortunately dikh bhi jaye toh aap use ignore karte ho...coz entry toh deni nahi hai use heart me....
sooo bachaiye bechare se apne masoom dil ko iss bimari se...coz in d wait of "true" , "normal"....n "nt-so -true-bt gud" will leave u frever n won't cum again..
don't look for perfection all d tym...!

Missing_Links_

Howdy friends…!

Nwdays m facing a drastic change in myself…yeah I mean..earlier I was well known for believing ppl. Easily now I don’t trust..hmm..so many questions come to my mind regarding a person..abt their intentions. behavior n all. I don’t knw y?????...i guess pehle in colg tym I was surrounded by my best buddied..:) but then colg finished n v grew at once… I wish those days cud hav remained forever. These things r running like hell in my mind. Soo..v were discussing the “trust”. Whn frnds were there everythin seemed so protective…in every decision …confusion …whtever we used to get valuable advices, or sumtyms warning(I used to get lotz of them hehe…)
Thnx to my frnd …but know be it making new frnds, buying a new dress or watching a new movie…sab kuch khud he karna padta hai…!:(

I think its not easy for me to build tht kind of trust again..may be I don’t wanna do tht.!
U knw once I was reading my orkut scraps and….and I read those scraps tht used to make me upset..but whn I read them again..i got to knw tht my frnds were right..i was realy crazy..:)..but still tht was also a passion..n quite natural.. ab I miss tht passion…feelings..like I hav become a dry person..tht I never wanted to be..!

Iss situation pe pankaj udhas ki kuch lines yaad aa gyi “ kya honge hum kharab…zamana kharab hai..”!!!

Not my fault..m just responding to this selfish world..coz here feelings doesn’t matter…everybody has a motive to be fulfilled..
I miss my kinda world…!!

ROCKSTARZ

U know when u have so much to say..u don’t find words. Same thing is happening with me..i have a full story but ab lag raha hai..y to write so much its just one line that taught me lot.” Whatever happens ..happens according to god’s will”.

I was worried…upset. disappointed ..tht y things r not happening as I planned them, where is my fault.. I have gud intention , dedication…nw I knw tht y it was so…coz things were happening according to god’s plan..which is above all…

There was a reason behind everything. Reason …was , hmmm…I guess god wanted me to see the so called practical life…n yeah..nw I hav bit experience of it...

Basically I learnt a lot…tht life is harsh, full of stupids n morons…who tried to manipulate ..

For a while I was realy upset bcoz of my professional life. Nw I knw clearly tht professional and personal goals should not be mixed anyhow. Apne kaam me itna bhi jyada involve nhi hona chahiye..:)

My event oops ..sry not mine I shd say “the event” “ROCKSTARZ” gave me lott.. I needed that practical touch of world hehe…

We never claim sumthing as “my”, “mine”, “myself”. We shd dedicate everything to GOD. I did that mistake and he taught me in his way..!!

Anyways…as I learned some imp. Lessons in life...so I also can say “I have experience”.(never got a chance to talk like matures )